ything that has happened in the past year I'm grateful to say that I have learned so much. A child on the way is something that was unexpected this year with the some what unorthodox relationship him and I were involved in. I could say that it was simple as this. He had a girlfriend but yet we were still in a type of relationship ourselves. Of course a lot of sex was happening which in turn really helped us realize all the pain and love that we both had for each other. Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever going to get over the feeling of complete failure when I realize that I messed up our great relationship we had in the past and had to settle for being what I hate to call a "side chick". I asked him if he would have met her first would we have ever been like this, so in love and helpless when it comes to one another. He says that now matter when he would have met me I would always be the love of his life. But its always going to be a lingering thought in the back of my head that if it was so easy to cheat on her what makes me any different? Picture dates back to 2006 <3
